13.12.2012

Hello there to all reader, It quiet a long time I din't post something.... I din't have anything to say about  in a past few week or month..... I been thinking about why I always felt something strange n kinder sad sometime but I try to endure it...... but it seem like it keep getting stronger..... I always kinder jealous sometime with people that knew my princess secret n can do something for help....  bcz some of my princess secret, I don't know but just can felt there something hidden n wrong... But I believe my prince n she might have her own reason for not telling me.... also there something I can do but my princess won't let me, the reason I don't know why..... but it make me felt so useless n guilt for not doing something sometime.... 

n now some of my trust to someone (princess u might know who it is) that I might believe, just fade away bcz that someone it just the same as everyone else that I knew.... but when they say something of the word that I always din't like to heard to my princess for joke.... but for me it not a joke at all, it make me felt so dumb to believe them......  n I still try to understand why they done something like that n say something like that...... but all the answer that I heard, it all din't make any sense..... but the word that for joke that I mention earlier, when they say that.... it kinder make me felt so sad..... I don't know why, but I felt it every time.......

   

I want to tell more about it, but it too private n I must keep it just in me...... I just have to face it, n try to understand about something...... but only I can say is.....

the more secret kept, the more sorrow bring