Felling Lonely .... .Don't know why ......
Err.... can I speak rojak ........ hehehe ..... maybe next time, Well this weird because there some of my post have been deleted ........ Well that is not important to me, but still make me curious about it ...... Today seems so weird also because it make me feel so lonely all of the sudden ........ Maybe because someone have already disturb my good sleep... ( mean being chocking by my sis ..... err .... )..... Now I just sit on my study desk n study like in totally in blurr mode ..... Well, thnk god that some of my study maybe get inside my hard head ...... XP ...... emm ..... I still feel so lonely now ..... n try to find it but it make me feel want to cry ......
But I not gonna crying like that... k, it just for example ..... but still maybe I cries like that for some reason ...... N still wondering why I in this feeling ..... maybe my result at trial seems suck n low a lot ..... emm ..... I don't wan't to talk about it ..... Now, I just have to keep studying n try to understand n accept the fate that I am lazy n slack off ....... emm ... but still I have to chance it ..... I always wonder that why I always like that n seems like din't care about that such of thing that so important in my life but maybe I just already get use to it ...... But I really taking that so serious even my head explode ........ I really don't want my family n someone that important to me feel sad n make they hope for me loss that so easy.... I already try my best to that trial but It still not enough for me to keep moving to success ..... Now I have to find a way, n try to stop this sadness to all people around me ....... So, I just have to find people that knows a lot about this study n subject that I seems not knowing to know how to do it ....... But it really hard to find that people that want to share the information about subject this days..... If I can't find someone to help me .... maybe I will be still in suck n low class for that I know ..... But that not means that I already lose hope about it ...... I still have a courage to keep moving about it ......
If I not sad by the study, maybe about my past that seems that is so bad that I can't remove it on my mind n memory forever ....... Why it have to be that way..... But still it give a courage to keep moving n make me feel so lonely ..... hahaha ..... why I in that mood today, where my spirit goes to..... Well , something man also have they mood to be sad n lonely for no season.....U all may heard that man can't cry....right .... but u heard wrong..... . they just don't want to tell they problem to u all because all the man don't want to make u to take they problem ..... Now, I also in that condition too .... But thnx to her, I have already found my way of solving problem ..... n try to find something to pay her back her kindness ...... n It may make me feel happy by her word of wisdom ..... hehehe ...... well, she is so perfect for me ...... so I won't let her life full of sadness n guilty ....... That I promise ...... For me, I will be loyal to one n only one in my life..... Because I can't tell to u all, sorry ....
Still wonders about it, err...... But still all for what I have done, there a reason for it ..... n benefit for it ..... I know why I sad but I just can't describe it ...... But maybe u all may know it someday ..... so that all for today .... so bye .... n see u on the next post .....
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Felling Lonely .... .Don't know why ......
Err.... can I speak rojak ........ hehehe ..... maybe next time, Well this weird because there some of my post have been deleted ........ Well that is not important to me, but still make me curious about it ...... Today seems so weird also because it make me feel so lonely all of the sudden ........ Maybe because someone have already disturb my good sleep... ( mean being chocking by my sis ..... err .... )..... Now I just sit on my study desk n study like in totally in blurr mode ..... Well, thnk god that some of my study maybe get inside my hard head ...... XP ...... emm ..... I still feel so lonely now ..... n try to find it but it make me feel want to cry ......
But I not gonna crying like that... k, it just for example ..... but still maybe I cries like that for some reason ...... N still wondering why I in this feeling ..... maybe my result at trial seems suck n low a lot ..... emm ..... I don't wan't to talk about it ..... Now, I just have to keep studying n try to understand n accept the fate that I am lazy n slack off ....... emm ... but still I have to chance it ..... I always wonder that why I always like that n seems like din't care about that such of thing that so important in my life but maybe I just already get use to it ...... But I really taking that so serious even my head explode ........ I really don't want my family n someone that important to me feel sad n make they hope for me loss that so easy.... I already try my best to that trial but It still not enough for me to keep moving to success ..... Now I have to find a way, n try to stop this sadness to all people around me ....... So, I just have to find people that knows a lot about this study n subject that I seems not knowing to know how to do it ....... But it really hard to find that people that want to share the information about subject this days..... If I can't find someone to help me .... maybe I will be still in suck n low class for that I know ..... But that not means that I already lose hope about it ...... I still have a courage to keep moving about it ......
If I not sad by the study, maybe about my past that seems that is so bad that I can't remove it on my mind n memory forever ....... Why it have to be that way..... But still it give a courage to keep moving n make me feel so lonely ..... hahaha ..... why I in that mood today, where my spirit goes to..... Well , something man also have they mood to be sad n lonely for no season.....U all may heard that man can't cry....right .... but u heard wrong..... . they just don't want to tell they problem to u all because all the man don't want to make u to take they problem ..... Now, I also in that condition too .... But thnx to her, I have already found my way of solving problem ..... n try to find something to pay her back her kindness ...... n It may make me feel happy by her word of wisdom ..... hehehe ...... well, she is so perfect for me ...... so I won't let her life full of sadness n guilty ....... That I promise ...... For me, I will be loyal to one n only one in my life..... Because I can't tell to u all, sorry ....
Still wonders about it, err...... But still all for what I have done, there a reason for it ..... n benefit for it ..... I know why I sad but I just can't describe it ...... But maybe u all may know it someday ..... so that all for today .... so bye .... n see u on the next post .....
